Some more about the What and Why

Im Back

Okay, I’m back. Kinda didn’t expect it, to be honest. Must have been my first two followers. In this regard, thanks, fans of depressing real-life stories, for getting my dopamine up with that mighty follow button. Soon I will be one of those „can we get 1000 likes“?

As I am now officially a consecutive writer, I want to share some structure I just made up.

In an ideal world, I will tell you a bit about my life—especially what didn’t turn out to be very enjoyable and, most importantly, how I think it has obviously impacted me. The key topics will be:

• Obviously drinking father (not anymore, though, but he is still a brick)
• Some more very complicated family affairs (due to my father, of course)
• Some juicy health issues I used to encounter (or still am)
• Some demanding relationships, including suicidal thoughts and fancy manipulation
• And, the cherry on top—the consequences of all the BS the above have put on me over the years (mmmhmh, delicate topics to come)

After we have come to terms with this exquisite portfolio, we will go on to see why the saying „the body keeps the score“ is a really good one.

So back to the ideal world, where we kinda figure out together how I can solve this monumental bullshit I have accumulated over the years. Because teamwork makes the dream work.

The good part is—I know it can be done. The bad part is—overcoming it will be the most difficult task of my life, and I have plenty of evidence to support my claim. Otherwise, everyone would just change their life in an instant, and I don’t know where you folks are from, but unfortunately, I know of none who has truly turned their life a full 180. That is, besides every single guy on social media. This phenomoen seems also only to be possibile when living in Dubai.

However, I feel like 95–98% of people do a solid 360—or even a 720—and end up on the same path as before. Just think about the great classics of our time: nutrition, exercise, leaving an abusive partner, or, to give a more concrete example, the overworked boss who, after suffering a stroke, vows to work less and live better—only to find himself back in his 9-to-9 job within a few months, despite facing his own mortality (please pause here for a second….).

Oh, and let’s not forget about our screen time. I will most probably write some about this topic aswell, as i feel like our screens are more addicting than crack.

In less fancy words: They’re stuck as hell in their old routines. I’d even argue that most people don’t even realize it. But the truth is, most of us drool like Pavlov’s dog. So am I. I am a master drooler.

So yeah, we’re all droolers for now.

But for me, personally, it gets even more complicated. Because once you’ve realized that fact and accept it as true, the hardest part still remains—you actually have to do something and change. And, at least in my case, my tank isn’t even half full.

So what we might witness here is a real showdown—whether I’m able to fight my demons, rise to the level I want to live at, and actually feel my life—or if the suffering will continue. (Which it definitely will if I don’t take care of it.)

Closing toughts:

• Am I the only one constantly erasing his text? I’m no boomer, but I feel like one using WordPress’s interface.
• I actually write my texts without the help of ChatGPT. However, I am from Germany, so excuse my English. If you find any obvious errors, feel free to keep them.
• I’m really inspired by people who „have done it„, so if you’ve read this, feel free to reach out.
• If you’re struggling, just like many of us do, also feel free to reach out to me, as I believe that 1 + 1 is greater than 3.

TBD